No one just wakes up at rock bottom. You get there incrementally. It isn’t until later on we realize that we’re in over our heads. Ernest Hemingway wrote:
“How did you go bankrupt?”
“Two ways. Gradually, then suddenly.”
Doesn’t all bankruptcy follow this same pattern?
Whether we are talking about spiritual bankruptcy, emotional bankruptcy, physical bankruptcy…”Just this once” quickly forms a habit. Habits drive our decisions. Decisions over time make up who we are.
The good news is the hole you’ve dug isn’t so large that you can’t escape. Every problem has a solution otherwise it would be a situation. An unfortunate one at that. It’s likely that you have a choice to make here, just not one you are happy about.